Goals and Aspirations as I Turn 33
Happy
Birthday to me!
The
past 32 years have not been perfect. I am not perfect. I have made countless
mistakes and errors in judgment in my life, some I have paid for dearly. I have
dreams and opportunities I let go or even forget intentionally. I have hurt
people, even those I love. I have let situations and even some people control
my behaviour and actions. But there is no use in wallowing over those things. The
best thing to do is learn from it and change for the better.
As
I turn a year older, I want to be more intentional in directing the course of
my life so even though the new year is still months away I have made a list of
resolutions. Here are my 12 Goals for the next 12 months of my life:
1. Be physically active and have a
healthy diet.
Earlier,
I read with actions The Barnyard Dance by
Sandra Boynton to my little Queen B. Halfway
through the book, I was already panting. Definitely, I need to improve my
health condition. So it is time to wear my rubber shoes again and start
exercising. I also need to be more mindful of my diet.
2. Learn how to sew.
I
have always dreamed of making dresses for my little Queen B. So far I have only
made her an apron which is not even sewn properly as J had pointed out (He is actually better at sewing than me).
I also placed the sash incorrectly. I really would like to learn this skill.
3. Be someone who empowers others.
It
is easy to judge other people. In social media, it is common to read statuses
and comments that shame others. Our sinful nature wants others to fail so we
could raise ourselves. I know that with God’s strength and guidance, I can be
someone who empowers others and not belittle them. As long as what they are
doing is in accordance with God’s commandments, I will encourage and support
others.
4. Have plants flourish under my
care.
When
J and I first moved in to our house,
I bought several herbs and ornamental plants to place in our garden. I also planted some vegetables. Unfortunately,
only the lemon tree had survived. In my defense, pests had destroyed those
plants. Weeks ago, Georgina and I planted some chilli seeds and they have
already sprouted. I really would like them to grow and bear their fruits even
though we are not into spicy food. We do like chili leaves, though. I also would like to have my dream herb
garden become a reality.
5. Find more time to reflect and
write.
Growing
up, I kept a diary. You see I’m an introvert. It is in my nature to continually
process my thoughts and feelings and my writing helps me do that. Writing also
let me express my views and opinions that I have a hard time doing while in a
conversation. During my high school years, writing is also my way of showing my
creativity as I write poems and short stories. It is still a dream of mine to
write a novel. I am glad that a lot of people have found my posts inspiring
which is what this blog is all about.
6. Serve in church again.
J
and I were ushers in church. It is fulfilling to serve God in that small
capacity. As we become new parents, we decided to let go of our weekly ushering
duty. I would love to volunteer again in church. I know I have to start small
as Georgina still requires a lot of attention.
7. Make new friends and connect
more meaningfully with those I already have.
Unlike
J who just clicks with almost everybody, it is very difficult for me to make
new friends. My experience with some “friends” before has made me wary of
opening up to other people. One of the things I am thankful to J for is he
helped me overcome this fear of being hurt by others. I have made a lot of
headway in this aspect but I know there is still a big room for improvement. Of
course, old friends must be cherished so it is my goal to make that extra
effort to have a more meaningful and stronger relationship with them.
8. Be a positive influence and inspiration to others.
I was pleasantly surprised to see that my previous post about totschooling my little Queen B had garnered page views equivalent to my usual monthly number. Some had even reached out to me because of it. As I have mentioned in the post, I believe that my homeschooling Georgina is a calling. It is not to make me a better parent than others. I’m not aiming for any best parent award. I am doing what I believe is the best for my child. I am thankful that fellow parents are positively influenced by it and find my activities with my little Queen B inspiring.
9. Improve as an educator.
10. Become a more patient and
loving mom.
We
are nearing the so-called “terrible twos” stage with our little Queen B. She
asserts her independence in almost everything. I need to further extend my
patience when dealing with her. More than ever, I need to let my love for her rule
my behaviour and actions towards her.
11. Be a better wife to J.
Ever
since becoming a mom, I must admit that most of my time is dedicated to taking
care of our little Queen B. I know that I have been neglectful of my wifely
duties. These past days J is suffering from toothache as his wisdom teeth are
coming out. Instead of being understanding I was impatient and angry of the
inconvenience his pain has caused me. I am truly sorry. I must remember that I
am a wife first before becoming a mother.
11. Grow more spiritually and take
an active role in discipleship.
In
last Sunday’s sermon, our pastor preach to us that a healthy church have
members who grow spiritually and is able to share the Gospel. The Lord had
blessed me so much and I know that nothing I can do can ever repay what He had
done for me. He had only asked me to develop an intimate relationship with Him
by studying His Word and to keep his commandments, most especially the great
commission. It
is my pleasure to let Him be the center of my life.
I
am now 33 years old. As C.S. Lewis have
said, “You are never too old to set
another goal or to a dream a new dream”. I know that there are more things
in store for me. I know that I’m capable of more things. I just have to believe
that I can and will achieve those aspirations with the grace of God.
#xoxo
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